A Small Warning

While Simon and I are doing this to keep our friends/family/acquaintences in the know and so that we can remember the experience - we know that a great many people forget the insane emotions that go through them at a time like this. They remember joy, nervousness and excitement but tend to forget things like annoyance, anger and exhaustion. This is also a little bit of an experiment for us as well as (hopefully) a bit of reality for someone else out there who wants a bit of a real play-by-play of the emotional rollercoaster of childbirth and parenting. ...granted, I know that my experience is only one...but hey...still worth trying.

That said, not all of this blog is going to be happy and shiny. There will be some real, raw emotions here and we're going to express them pretty openly. We hope that this doesn't make anyone feel as if we're in any way unhappy about the birth of our son or that we're somehow not excited or don't love him. For us, this is the reality of things that people don't really talk about or express. I think that is extremely important to remember.

We may use foul language. ...you're warned.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Wednesday - 3:11am

Woke up sort of randomly in that way you sometimes do. It's the middle of the night but you're RIGHT in between sleep cycles so you wake up feeling totally conscious and well rested (until the tired kicks in again ten minutes later) and thought I'd use it to assess how I feel and to check some emails and maybe post an update. ...sadly (or not, depending on your perspective), I'm not contracting anymore that I can feel (worth noting that I'm spending 99% of my time totally asleep so I may just not be waking up or noticing it. Kid is moving around merrily which is good. Movements feel rather low, too.

I'm not really overly concerned. If I'm not contracting now, it means that I'll just be nice and well rested for when they give me pitocin in a few hours (probably around 7 or 8am).

I'm actually really pleased with the morphine. All things considered, I don't feel that sluggish from it - or at least...not in the same way. It's not the same unrelenting exhaustion tired that you sometimes feel with sleeping pills. It's just the sort of dregs of a nice, relaxed (hey, I could totally nap) feeling. This is actually preferable.

Simon is sleeping well. I actually told him before I went to sleep that I might need his help in the middle of the night getting up to pee (because at the time everything was spinning so amazingly fast, wheeeee!) but by the time I woke up a couple of hours later I was MUCH more capable of walking in straight lines.

In other news, I appear to have finally caught Simon's cold which is just the best damned timing ever - and apparently the dental pain I've been having over the last week or two is probably caused by the relaxin making my teeth loose (it jumps from tooth to tooth, hurting every one in the right side of my jaw and sometimes just my gums). Okay. Things are getting spinny again, time for more sleep...

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